Sunday, April 3, 2011

A work in progress....

Those of you who know me well, or have been reading me for awhile, know that my faith is a very big part of who I am. Actually, it IS who I am. More than anything else my religious beliefs define me.

These beliefs influence the decisions I make - the way I try to live my life. They influence the rules of our house, the activities our children are allowed to participate in, the way we dress, and allow our children to dress. These beliefs influence my political opinions, and the way I act and speak.

That being said, I am so far from where I'd like to be. Spiritually speaking that is. I feel like I go through phases. Like sometimes I am right up there, really living my life in a way that I feel is pleasing to my Heavenly Father, trying hard to set a good example to those around me, serving others, being productive with my time. Then I have my times where I am not doing so hot. Where I know I am not being the mother I should be, or speaking as appropriately as I should . Times where I waste my time doing things that don't serve any true purpose in my life, or anyone else's. That's where I am right now. Where I feel like I've been a lot recently.

That's why I'm so grateful this weekend is General Conference. I love listening to the words of prophets, hearing the counsel of my leaders, and just being spiritually renewed by the words and spirit of the conference. It couldn't come at a more perfect time for me.

This video illustrates beautifully the most basic belief that all of my values are founded upon. I love my Savior, and more than anything I want to live my life as He would have me live, and one day return to him along with my family. I'm so grateful for the Easter season, and the time to celebrate and reflect on the most significant event in the history of all mankind. Enjoy.


Vivienne @ the V Spot said...

Xazmin, we ALL go through the ups and downs of a solid spiritual walk with the Lord. And we all can always do better, get closer, seek Him more. I am glad you had an opportunity to get a spiritual shot in the arm this weekend.

Sugarplum Creations Blog said...

I feel this way a lot. There are times I feel so good about my relationship with Him, and times that I'm ashamed of the time that I make for Him. Yay for General Conference this weekend! When I was flipping through the channels yesterday I saw it broadcast, and I know what a special time it is for you.

Macey said...

Oh man, I'm with Viv and Liz, both.
I have so many ups and downs...SO MANY. I'm thinking I'm down more than up, but less down that I used to be. Does that make ANY sense??
We had this debate at church...what is more significant, the birth of our savior and Christmas or Easter when he has Risen?
I think I lean towards Easter. What a beautiful gift it is.

Myya said...

I can't compete with the beautiful comments above but I can definitely say that ups & downs I do have too. What an amazing gift we have that each & every day we can do better. :)

Sami said...

This is exactly why we are not expected to be perfect. If we were, I would be a crushing disappointment.
beautiful post, Xazmin! I LOVED General Conference this weekend. Did you get to attend any sessions in the conference center?