Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Blog Friends Rock

This summer, not only did I have the treat of having some awesome blog friends stay at my house, but I got the chance to meet Emmy, a blogger I have been "friends" with for years, but never met in person!

An added bonus to this meet up was another of HER blog friends becoming my friend as well!  I had not "known" Involuntary Amy before our little get together, but I am SO glad we got to meet through our mutual friendships with Amy.

We planned on getting together for a late dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory in Salt lake.  Emmy was going to pick me up and we were going to ride together and meet up with Amy.

A few days before our meet up, I got a text from a very good friend of ours (mine and Hubby's), he was throwing a Birthday BB-Q for his wife (also a very good friend), and wanted to make sure we could be there.  Yep, it was the same night as my bloggy friend meet-up.

Luckily, we were already meeting sorta late, so I asked if we could bump it an extra half-hour.  that way I could go to the BBQ for a couple of hours, and then still meet up with my friends in plenty of time to have a fun night.

I had a great time at the BB-Q and then Emmy picked me up and we headed to meet Amy.  We ordered appetizers and drinks at the restaurant and stayed chatting until they closed.  We knew that we still had some good visiting in us, and weren't ready to say goodbye.  So we drove to Denny's (open until 3 a.m.!), and visited some more!

It was well after midnight when I got home, but was definitely so worth it.  I can't wait for Emmy to visit Utah again, and lucky form me, Amy doesn't live too terribly far away, so hopefully I won't have to wait until Emmy comes again to hang out with Amy again!

Emmy posted a pic of us here.  I'm not posting it because I hate how I look in it.  But Amy and Emmy both look fab!

Thursday, August 16, 2012

What happened next

After enjoying a fabulous visit with 3 Awesome Girls, I was pooped out!

I had been ignoring my pregnancy fatigue to prepare my home for visitors, and then was riding high on the fun of having them here and showing them around my community, and staying up all night visiting.  So when they left...I crashed!

I was feeling particularly drained one Sunday afternoon, when my dad called us all into the living room to talk.  We had gone to my parent's for Sunday dinner.  We had been talking on the phone to my brother who had moved to North Dakota, and Dad asked us to put him on speaker phone so he could talk to all of us.

He informed us that he had visited a new lung doctor the previous week, and gotten some news that he didn't feel that he should keep from us.  I wrote about my dad's health problems here.

He proceeded to tell us that the new doctor told him that even though he was on oxygen, because his lungs were not functioning at full capacity, they were not able to expel the carbon dioxide when he breathed out, and it was building up, and eventually his lungs would give out.  We didn't know how to respond.

He told us that they were going to still perform a few more tests and explore some options, but that they would not be options that could heal him, but perhaps help in keeping him around for longer, and more comfortably.  He said he wasn't counting on anything though, and that he could only have a couple of months left, or he could have a couple of years left, but he just wanted us to know what he had been told.  He had some more tests scheduled for the end of the month.

He told us that he wasn't afraid to die.  That he was ready if it was time for him to go.  He told us that what he was afraid of was suffering.  Of feeling like he was suffocating when the end came, of not being able to get breath.  He asked us that when we prayed, instead of praying for him to stick around, that we pray for him to be able to leave this life peacefully when the time came.  That it wouldn't be painful, or a struggle.

I was pretty much quiet the rest of the evening.  I wasn't ready for this.  I have always known my dad wouldn't live to a ripe old age.  His health has always been bad.  But I wasn't ready yet.  He was going to be a grandpa again.  I needed him to be here for that.  I couldn't stand the thought of him not being around to see his new grand baby.  I needed him here for that, and that's what I asked for when I prayed.

I was already having a great deal of anxiety about this pregnancy (as I was unprepared to get pregnant, I was worried about my health and my age, and how it would affect my pregnancy), this news added to my nervousness, and I pretty much worried every day that my dad wouldn't be here to meet my new baby, or that something would go wrong with my pregnancy.  It was a hard time for me, and for all our family.

Telling the kids was the hardest.  They love their grandpa so much.  They were heartbroken when they learned, and we rallied around them to help them know that things would be okay, and that we are a forever family, and that's all that matters.  But it was still hard.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Surprise! And Awesome Girls

So, as many of you know, I had 3 amazing ladies come visit me at the beginning of the summer.  Amanda, Macey and Myya are all blog friends whom I couldn't wait to spend some girl time with.  I had met Macey previously, and couldn't wait to hang with her again, and it would be my first time meeting Amanda and Myya.

As you can imagine, I was both excited to meet them, as well as anxious for the impression myself, my home, and my family would make on them!  I was going crazy trying to get my home ready for TEN house guests (the kiddos were invited too)!  In the middle of the scrambling, Hubby and I got the surprise of our lives:

That's right folks....baby number 5 is on the way!  To say that we were surprised and also a little overwhelmed would be an understatement.  Readjusting our mindset from the idea that we were done having children to the idea that we will soon have FIVE kids has been an adventure.  But we are thankful for this blessing, and the kids are over the moon excited.  Monkey kisses my tummy every time she walks past me.

Back to my awesome girls.  The whole group arrived safely and gift exchanging, hugging and laughing ensued.  I already loved Macey, and I immediately loved Amanda and Myya as well!  The 4 of us really had such a great time together.  Sadly, Amanda started feeling sick a couple of days in.  She was a trooper, and hung in there for several more days, but the constant going, combined with the horrible air outside due to the raging wildfires across the state (my whole state was seriously on fire this summer) caused her to keep feeling worse, instead of better.  She ended up having to leave early, and when she visited her doctor she ended up with a diagnosis of Strep and Tonsillitis - EW!  Poor girl.  We were so sad to see her depart early, and not feeling well.  But we were glad for the time we did get to spend with her!

Some of our awesome adventures included:

Heading to the park to hang with Sami, Evelyn and Tanielle (more blog and IRL friends!).

We took this photo after Tanielle and Sami had already left - boo.

Visiting a historic farm that included a tractor-pulled wagon ride, feeding the ducks (and really mean geese), as well as milking the cow.  Macey was in love with that part a little too much....

Weenie roasting in the backyard because the mountains were already on fire, and you weren't allowed to build camp fires up the canyons.

Bingham Canyon Mine - you can totally see it from space!

Of course Temple Square.  There were lots of brides there that day - beautiful!

And much more!

But the best times were truly the nights after the kiddos were in bed and we sat up visiting and laughing and making fun of each other.  I know we built friendships that will outlast all our blogs!  Especially Amanda's - since she already quit blogging. ;)

I know this fabulous start to my summer, the wonderful friends and memories definitely helped fortify me for the things to come that weren't as fantastic - and I'm so grateful for these awesome girls and the fun we had!

Monday, August 13, 2012

What I Did Over Summer Vacation

The blog.  Sigh.  It's been a long time since I've been here.  I've missed it - but also been overwhelmed by the thought of jumping back in because so much has happened that I don't even know where to start.  Just as I would be thinking over in my head that I needed to get back and get stuff recorded, some new major experience would begin to unfold, and not only would I not find the time to get to the blog - it would also add a pile of more material that I would need to cover!

My summer has been interesting, to say the least.  I won't cover it all in one post, but just so you know, I haven't been neglecting you for no reason!  Here's a list of the things that have kept me away from being a good blogger:

An unexpected surprise
A fantastic week of blog friends visiting
Upsetting news
Meeting a long time blog friend, and making a new one
The drowning of a Boutique
A scare
Saying goodbye to my dad
A family with the plague

If you read over the list and thought that it sounds like I had a mostly crappy summer - well you would be right.  It started out amazing with my wonderful visit with wonderful friends, but quickly went downhill from there.  I figure the best way to get over my self-pity is just to get it all out on the blog and move on!

On a more cheerful note, who watched the Olympics?  Unless you're new here, you know I freaking LOVE the Olympics.  Have you had a favorite moment?  I've been a little distracted, so I haven't enjoyed them the way I normally do, but here are some things that have made me smile during the past couple weeks:


Phelps going out on top.

First team gold for U.S. women's gymnastics since '96

And of course, everything about this guy made me smile.  Oh yeah, and maybe cry a little too.

I hope everyone has enjoyed their summer.  And maybe missed me at least a little bit.  I'll be back tomorrow to tell you all about the awesome girls who came to help me kick off the summer.