This Is The Year

It's been almost a year since I first posted here about Ambria and her struggle with Post Concussion Syndrome .  At that time Ambria had already been suffering for a year, and I was at the end of my rope.  To quickly recap, Ambria came home from a church dance with a debilitating Migraine one day in late February of 2015.  And it didn't go away.  For months.  She couldn't go to school, or church, or out with friends. Life sort of came to a stand still for her.  She spent most of her days sleeping, and when she wasn't asleep she was like a zombie and in so much pain.  She was eventually diagnosed with Post Concussion Syndrome.  She'd suffered multiple sports concussions from playing soccer.  She was just supposed to try and treat the pain while waiting for her brain to start working properly again. We had many doctor's visits, tests, dietary changes, different perscriptions, so many things to try and help with the pain.  Nothing hel...

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 The Boy Who Loved The Girl With The Headache Ambria's story is not over.  We still have lots to accomplish to achieve her victory over this condition that has temporarily taken over her life.  It is hard.  Life is hard.  Being a mom is really hard.  But I know beyond any doubt that my Heavenly Father loves me.  And that He loves my daughter more perfectly than I can even begin to imagine. Through all of this, I've never doubted that Heavenly Father knows what He's doing.  There is a purpose, maybe many purposes for this trial.  I want to end this series of posts by sharing things that I have learned over the course of this past year. I have learned not to judge .  I try hard not to worry about what other people think of me.  It is a weakness that I haven't overcome yet.  So this experience has been quite humbling for me.  I've often wondered how our situation appears to others. Ambria misses so mu...

Meet Justin.  He is Ambria's absolute best friend, confidant and hero. It is this boy's kindness, support, and heartfelt concern that has gotten Ambria through her hardest, loneliest times.  We are so, so grateful for the blessing he has been in her life through all of this.  I couldn't tell her story without acknowledging him, and what a huge role he has played in helping her endure this trial. Ambria and Justin have been good friends for about 2 1/2 years.  They met while both performing in the school musical.  She was in 7th grade, and he was in 8th.  Their friendship became even stronger about a year later thanks to some silly teenage girl drama (insert eye roll), when he stood up for her to some other (girl) friends of his that had a problem with his friendship with Ambria, and started saying some not nice things about her.  He and Ambria were pretty tight after that - but nothing would strengthen their bond like the trial Ambria was...

Read part 1 .   Read part 2 . The highs and lows and where we're at now. I wish I could say that since summer break Ambria has just kept improving and things are looking wonderful.  But unfortunately that is not the case. There was a time that our hopes were soaring high.  After all the physical pain and the emotional heartache, one day it all started to go away.  It was July 13th - four and a half months from that horrible night of the region dance.  Many doctor's visits, different treatments, dietary adjustments, supplements and medications later - Ambria woke up one morning and sent me a message.  She asked me to come into the bedroom where she had been sleeping.  I rushed in to see what was wrong.  She looked at me with a sort of puzzled expression and said, "My headache is gone."  I heard what she said, but that didn't keep me from asking, "What?" "My headache is gone," she repeated.  I didn't know what to think.  I wra...

If you haven't read part one - go here . Tender Mercies Throughout this ordeal of physical pain, emotional pain, helplessness and frustration - we have not been without blessings from our Heavenly Father.  There have been so many little tender mercies that we have experienced, and I'd like to share 3 that were especially needed and filled us with gratitude. Pedals for Hope Every year our 8th grade class does a cancer fundraiser called Pedals for Hope.  The students participate in a bike ride to raise money for the Huntsman Cancer Institute .  Ambria has been looking forward to this ride since she was in elementary school.  She was heartbroken at the thought of not being able to participate, now that it was finally her turn.  Her doctor gave her the okay to go ahead and try it, provided that her pain was manageable enough on the day of the ride.  The week leading up to the ride she wanted to practice on her bike, as she had not ridden since long bef...

One year .  It was one year ago today that my oldest daughter walked away from a church dance with a headache that would completely change her life.  That's not where it all began though.  It began long before then, with a girl who had a passion for soccer, and an extremely competitive nature. I haven't posted much on social media, or at all on my blog about her situation.  I don't like to publicly dwell on and lament about my family's trials.  I don't want to seem like I'm fishing for sympathy, or like I'm needy.  Maybe I'm just too prideful and don't want to seem weak.  Also, I know of others who are going through far worse trials and I feel guilty talking about ours.  But enough people know bits and pieces of her story and wonder what exactly is going on, so I thought it was time to get it all out there.  Perhaps her story will reach someone else who is going through a similar trial and help them feel less lonely.  And it will be go...

Do you ever have one of those Sundays? You know, the Sundays where you spend so much time telling your kids to "be quiet and listen" that you don't have time to listen to the speaker yourself? That was my day today. This was the worst week I can remember in a loooong time for my kids (not ALL of them) misbehaving so badly! It started out when we were getting in the car this morning. Out of nowhere Monkey starts wailing "I don't wanna go to noiswee (nursery)!" with big old crocodile tears rolling down her cheeks. She has never cried about nursery. Not once and she has been going for nearly a year and a half. Weird. In Sacrament Meeting , Pixie and Bookworm decided to act like 2 year olds and fight (tug o' war style) over the Hymn books! What the heck? It was very exasperating. But something I've learned through the years is that Satan works hardest to distract us when there is something important we are supposed to be learning, or doing. He didn't...

Tonight was Super Hero Night at Young Women's! We were combined with the Young Men, and we were supposed to come dressed up as a super hero, and we had to complete Super Hero Boot Camp! I didn't know what to do! Thank goodness for brilliant friends. Y'all know how much I love sparkly things...at least I think you do. So my friend Rachael said I should be Glitter Girl. I did bring Glitter Toes to camp after all! I armed myself with glitter of all sorts and invited myself over to Tanielle 's. I knew she'd love to be let loose on me with glitter and hair spray! Here's what she made of me! Sorry the resolution is really crappy...I promise my skin looks better than this! But when I cropped the pictures it messed up the resolution...GAH! Glitter.... Girl! And here's a shot of the fabulous hair! I wish you could see how sparkly it is, Tanielle went crazy and dumped tons and tons of purple glitter on my head! I don't know if it will ever come out! We also ...

I'm Back! Did you miss me? I missed you! This week's FMM is being hosted by Jolanthe at No Ordinary Moments , and is a perfect oportunity for me to share Girl's Camp ! The task is Vacation ...and we're supposed to share our favorite vacay. Well technically Girl's Camp was a resposnibility for church, but I loved every minute of it...so I'm sharing! If you read me regularly you know I had to go to camp late, due to some unfortunate events that took place during the weeks prior. I'm still really sad that I missed the first 2 days! When I got to camp, the girls were having free time, and they were doing fun hemp styles in each other's hair. You use the hemp twine to twist and tie around the hair, kind of like friendship bracelets, if you ever made those. You throw some beads into the design as well. This picture was the perfect representative of the entire week. The girls were really kind to each other, and there wasn't any girl drama with cliques, an...